Delusional

"For me, personally, a mix has the most impact when it feels like I'm watching a movie. With ups, downs, some drama, sentiment, moment of joy, climax and anticlimax. And yes: tension and release." --- originally published on Ambientblog ---

When I started working on this mix, its working title was Wonderlust, simply because I liked that word: a variation on wanderlust ('a desire to travel') which the Urban Dictionary describes as 'the desire to be in a constant state of wonder'.But as the mix progressed, the title didn't fit very well. There were too many dark and unsettling moments... moment that may evoke their own 'state of wonder' but of a completely different kind. The Questions in Anja Garbarek's track are crucial to this mix and gave it its title: a few simple questions to diagnose severe psychotic disorders, a delusional state of mind. There may be quite a few of these delusional moments in this mix, but they are alternated with moments of joy in an almost melodramatical equilibrium.

More info on https://www.ambientblog.net/blog/2019-01/delusional-mix/

Tracklist:(first time is the start time, time in brackets is the sample length)

• 00:00 (01:13) Angelo Badalamenti/City Of Prague Orchestra - Mulholland Drive ThemeMulholland Drive soundtrack, 2001, Milan 74321 89823 2
• 00:59 (00:59) Allesio Ballerini - WiwananaWiwanana OST, 2018, Fluid Audio 054
• 01:43 (01:49) Martin Ptak - StormRiver Tales, 2018, Col-Legno WWE 1CD 20441
• 01:57 (00:32) Goblin - Suspiria (Celesta & Bells)Suspiria OST, 1977/2012, Cinevox CD OST 702/s
• 02:30 (02:04) Jóhann Jóhannsson - Seeker Of The Serpents EyeMandy OST, 2018, Invada LSINV203CD
• 03:11 (02:57) Monty Adkins - Still Juniper Snow: Distant WatersBozzini+, 2018, Huddersfield Contemporary Records HCR19CD
• 05:38 (01:08) Anja Garbarek - QuestionsThe Road Is Just A Surface, 2018, Drabant Music, DM58LPPER
• 05:52 (03:17) Gryllus Ábris - Post_02Post_, 2017, Farbwechsel FARB026
• 08:01 (01:51) Autechre - Sinstrailab AirNTS Sessions 2, 2018, Warp Records WARPCD364 
• 08:30 (02:31) Jessica Moss - Fractals (Truth 3)Entanglement, 2018, Constellation CST138
• 10:09 (01:58) Rudolf Eb.er - IshikiriOm Kult: Ritual Practice Of Conscious Dying- Vol. II, 2018, Om Kult OM-2
• 10:27 (00:25) Anja Garbarek - QuestionsThe Road Is Just A Surface, 2018,
• 11:05 (01:17) Ulnar - Daylight FireworksDreaming Of Sailing Further West, 2017, Colectivo Casa Amarela CCA003
• 11:41 (02:42) Jean C. Roche - Rancho GrandeBirds Of Venezuela, 1973/2018, Sub Rosa SR411LP
• 12:05 (03:08) Arve Henriksen - SanmyakuSakuteiki, 2001, Rune Grammofon RCD2021
• 14:12 (02:34) The Newton Brothers - Feel NothingThe Haunting Of Hill House OST, 2018, Wax Work Records
• 16:23 (02:22) Thomas Vaquié - EcumeEcume, 2016, Antivj Recordings 
• 18:31 (02:56) From The Mouth Of The Sun & Seabuckthorn - Lesser StillWe Stayed The Path That Fell To Shadow, 2018, Lost Tribe Sound
• 21:21 (00:43) Maria W. Horn - AtropaKontrapoetik, 2018, XKatedral XK12
• 21:44 (01:35) Bass Communion - Drugged IV Reconstructions And Recycling (Bass Communion Remixed), 2003, Headphone Dust BCCD5
• 22:30 (03:07) Alea Saxophone Quartet - Arvo Pärt: SolfeggioArvo Pärt Anima, 2017, Col-Legno WWE 1CD 20437
• 24:52 (02:57) BJNilsen - Table Of HoursFocus Intensity Power, 2017, Moving Furniture Records MFR062
• 26:40 (04:06) Illuminine - Dear, Utopia (feat. Adam Bryanbaum Wiltzie)#3, 2018, Ferryhouse Productions FHP 42617
• 26:42 (01:27) Michael Fahres - Het Gesloten OgenblikGäbrik (music from the book by Marc Legendre), 2018, Vlaamse Onafhankelijke Stripgilde
• 29:33 (02:20) Mathieu St. Pierre - 23.0785729, 143.9554413 These Elephants, 2018, Se;f-released (Bandcamp)
• 30:46 (01:22) Janek Schaefer - To Row Against The TideWhat Light There Is Tells Us Nothing (For Robert Wyatt), 2018, Temporary Residence Limited TRR305
• 31:53 (01:05) Mothertape - Problem 4In Progress Vol. III, 2018, Centrum Sztuki Współczesnej "Łaźnia"
• 31:57 (01:54) Murcof - Chapitre VILost In Time, 2018, Glacial Movements Records GMO35
• 33:22 (02:16) Varg, Annamelina - Stonewall PoemNordic Flora Series Pt. 5 - Crush, 2018, Posh Isolation 209
• 33:52 (02:03) Ipek Gorgun - MilevaEcce Homo, 2018, Touch TO:106
• 34:45 (02:16) Hans Zimmer & Benjamin Wallfisch - RainBlade Runner 2049 OST, 2017, Epic 19075800852
• 36:11 (02:47) Machinefabriek - HangingEngel, 2018, Self-Released (Bandcamp)
• 37:44 (02:30) Adam Mankowski - Próba Dźwięki Z Offu, 2018, Attenuation Circuit ACU 1013
• 39:06 (03:35) Les Horribles Travailleurs - Keizersrande 4 (ft. Anja Kreysing)Off Track, 2018, Esc.Rec 62
• 40:53 (01:06) Rudolf Eb.Er - Licht (Unborn Light)Om Kult: Ritual Practices Of Conscious Dying - Vol. 1, 2018, Om Kult OM-1
• 41:32 (04:47) Claudio F. Baroni - Solo VIII-AirMotum, 2018, Unsounds 61U
• 41:40 (02:41) Ed Alp - RTPVCunreleased, 2009, private collection
• 44:31 (03:00) Monty Adkins - Still Juniper Snow: Spiral PathsBozzini+, 2018, Huddersfield Contemporary Records HCR19CD
• 47:02 (01:23) Minco Eggersman - Melisma & GurianKavkasia, 2017, Volkoren 73
• 47:30 (02:32) Jacob Lindhagen - KenopsiaPaces, 2017, 1631 Recordings FR1-015
• 49:14 (02:05) Jonty Harrison - Going Places (2015)Voyages, 2016, Empreintes DIGITALes IMED 16139
• 50:01 (01:18) Cadeu - Echoic VIIIEchoic, 2018, Esc.Rec 60
• 50:50 (02:50) Colin Stetson - Mothers & DaughtersHereditary OST, 2018, Milan M2-36952
• 53:35 (01:33) Jóhann Jóhannsson & BJ Nilsen - Carkeys (reversed)I Am Here OST, 2014, Ash International Ash 11.1
• 54:36 (01:13) Jon Hopkins - PrologueMonsters OST, 2010, Double Six DS036D
• 55:35 (04:07) Brian Eno & Metropole Orchestra - An Ending (arr. Dick Bakker)Shutov Assembly Live Paradiso, 1999, unreleased