2929I can’t advise you, since you decided to injure yourself spiritually/physically by leaving Yeshi

In the merit of your parents may you see the truth and good that lies ahead of you by studying in the Yeshiva nigleh and Chasidus. Hopefully this will be soon while the damage is still little. https://www.torahrecordings.com/rebbe/igroskodesh/009/013/2929