3995 - You mention reading a book on palmistry and charms. Avoid delving into such practices

We possess a tried and tested charm—our holy Torah, whose wisdom connects us to Hashem. Your claim that you're not capable within the framework of Chabad is unfounded. You have a mitzvah to love your fellow as yourself. If you're capable and strong for yourself, you can be for others as well. https://www.torahrecordings.com/rebbe/igroskodesh/012/004/3995