When you see Hashem's kindness in the physical, you get the hint to improve your spirituality.

If your argument that you are not knowledgeable enough takes away from Torah and service, it is a tactic of the yetzer hara. I advise you to go to the mikvah, give charity, say Tehillim, and study Chassidus. Look for a shidduch. https://www.torahrecordings.com/rebbe/igroskodesh/011/010/3600